Heel Me

© Duddi Mai 2008

Feels like headache
Might be the hair dye
I went with a different color this time
I want to be someone else for a while

I might have done you wrong somewhere
Somewhere along our time
And still you just stand there
Stand there and look so enchanted

I can’t stand my fears
And I can’t face them
They’re still here
And I can’t fight them

I’ll never be free
Free of the judgmental
Free of the perfect being
Deep down all are just elemental

I can whisper “why” in the air
And get nothing back
I can try and ask you
And I’ll get “why what?”

In my mirror I’m so perfect
On pictures not that much
I’m a mysterious girl
To others not more than them

Stay with me
But Leave me alone
I’m still lost
I can’t fight it anymore